19 weeks today. I can't resist saying, "almost half way there." I am still freaking paranoid and stupid about this pregnancy, and I *still* don't think I've come to terms with the fact that in about 20 more weeks, I'll have a baby. It's like I'm doing all this stuff, like reorganizing my house and cleaning like a crazy woman because I understand that that is what I am supposed to do, and it's what I *want* to do, but it doesn't feel like I'm *really* doing this for this little baby that's going... read more
